Had a bad morning, hit my self on my feet before coming off to work while closting the front gate. Was suppose to reverse the car instead I drove in front almost bang the front gate of my house. Luckily I am able to get to my sense to know what is going on. Stepped on the break peddle, else.. history.
This is due to the tatto incident on my bf’s hand of the name of the x’s gf of his. So long already still I had to dig it up, but I can’t help it can i? seeing other gurl’s name on his hand instead of mine makes me go insane.
I do not know why on earth do I keep bringing this up, at least once every year. Well the fact that the name is there is truely a FACT and it is in a such obvious position, how else should I ignore it? Do I have to keep telling myself to ignore? How many times can I stand the feeling where I see other gurls name on him rather then my name.
It’s not that I want my name on him but it’s just a matter of fact that I would want to hear beautiful words from him but yet what I always get is the opposite. I had asked him “when are u getting my name on since u have her name on?” he answered ” wait till u marry me”
Wait till I marry him? I was so offended what does he meant by after marrying him? Was his X married to him when he got her name on him? Then, was it he loved her so deeply that he would do it but when it comes to me I had to marry him first? This sentence is not nice to hear.
All of you may think that I overly reacted but imagine if your guy has another gurl’s name on him. If you can accept it well good for you, as for me I can’t no matter how I try and tell myself to.
~Tear drops on my pillow~
